I'm psycho or something:

Mood swings
Random crying
Depression
Hatred
Sadness
Then nothing wrong at all
Someone says something to me--it could be ANYTHING--And the cycle continues
Moos swings
Random crying
Depression
then hatred
Then there's nothing wrong
I notice it happening after the fact
I can't help it
I'm bi-polar
I can just feel it
Mood swings
Random crying
Depression
Hatred
then nothing's wrong
I've not ALWAYS been like this!
I used to be a happy child
Something triggered this new me
What, I don't know
Mood swings
Random crying
Depression
Hatred
then there's nothing wrong
I need a shrink
But the thought of me going to one...
It's scary
They'll either tell me I'm:
Clinically Depressed
Bi-polar
imagining it
There's nothing wrong...
Either way, they'll put me on pills
I don't want to become a pill-popper at 14!
But what should I do with the
Mood swings
Random crying
Depression
hatred
then everything's fine?

My dad's looking into getting me a shrinky-dink appointment...Oh boy.

Good things from

 this weekend:

• Got to hang with my cooler set of grandparents
• got to hang with my Aunt and Uncle (the ones that look like Cameron Diaz and Tom Cruise) and their awesome friends
• Got to go to the Eagles game
• Got new clothes (two blue shirts for school and 2 new pairs of Tilt Jeans [PacSun]&& a belt [Hot Topic])
• Hot guys walking around Scottsdale Mall *melt* hehe <shallow moment!
• Got to see "Vanilla Sky"

Bad things from

 this weekend:

• Had to hang out with old people the whole time (not including the grand'rents)
• Eagles lost against the Cardinals
• I missed out on a lot while I was gone
• My mum really annoyed me this weekend..dunno why.
• Jess (my sister) got really moody and bitchy..

But other than that, it was a good weekend!

I feel Like

no one

understands

me

I can't talk to my family...
I never really could...
But that's not the point...
No one listens to me anymore
And I wanna leave..
I just want to...
Go.. and get away from them, and the pressure...
I'm tired of it! I hate it!!
Someone save me

Ohh goshh...

I don't know what to do, guys.

I want to apply for Las Vegas Academy**

**LVA is a theater arts magnet school here in town.**

but if I got in, I'd have to get up at like, 4:30 in the morning or something just to catch the bus across town. I mean, I have mixed feelings about going to Cheyenne too. They're going to go to the dress code thing too... you know, the collared shirt thing...and I mean, I can deal with it, hopefully they'll be a little more leniant(sp?) since it's High school, but, y'know. And.. Ugh. I'm in a "pickle" as those oldsters call it.

I'm talking to my math teacher about it.  He graduated from Green Valley (which is one of the best schools in the district) after moving here from.....Argentina? either Argentina or Australia... *shrug*...so he knows what it's like to graduate here...but I don't want to graduate here! The schools suck donkey, mannn. Nevada is ranked 49th out of 50 when it comes to academia. That's sad. Especially when I came from New Jersey which is ranked, like, number 5 or something.  It's in the top 10% and that's EXCELLENT. I'm practically a year a head of the average 8th grader here. It sucks.

But my main concern is what high school to go to.

Goshh

 guys

thanks for

the peeks

at 

the previous

 post!!

Geez!

So this week has been REALLY abnormal!!

NJHS (National Junior Honor Society) is selling hot chocolate at every lunch period until, like, January or something... So I've been doing that all week..

Our first day was yesterday (Thursday) and ran out of Hot Chocolate half way through 8th grade lunch! But we still got like, $150 some-odd dollars ^-^

We're also selling candy grams... so.. yeah.. ^-^ But uhmm...

Today we got like, 170 dollars! O.O that's a LOT!!

But today was the first time all week I've been able to hang out with Robin, Ryan, Bea, Mikhail, and Kevin at lunch...so yeah.. today was cool

But it's been an odd week all around anyway. ^-^

lalaalalaaa....

but uhm.. yeah..

So...

Now I'm bored though....

<3 Ryan ^-^